four pounds
Written: 2005-11-02 at 4:48 p.m.
dr's appointment today. weight four pounds away from my goal weight. too low. dr concerned, in a very out of character undramatic and quiet manner. makes me nervous. she eyed my hip bones poking through my shirt and touched them slightly. told me to come back next week because i am really just too thin now.
four pounds, seems like its so far away, but its really like nothing. i can do that in a month. i hope.
i feel fine. i actually honestly feel ok today. felt fine yesterday. my boy has been cooking so i've been eating a bit more than usual. that's got to stop unti i'm ready to up my calories. but i like when we cook.
my dr. and therapist are really the only people saying anything, nobody else has said anything about my weight. which either means they don't care or i'm not too thin. *shrug* usually my parents and friends are freaking out alongside my dr. its nice not to have to constantly declare myself fine to the entire world.
it also reaffirms my thinking that i'm not even close to being too thin. which is not helping my dr.'s case any. my therapist is still new so she's not pushing any issue to strongly.
i think i'm going to take a nap i'm kind of hungry.