girls night out
Written: 2005-10-23 at 3:22 a.m.
tf has been down and that sucks.
i'm a little drunk and that sucks. or is the end of a good night i guess it depends on how you look at it. my husbands not home, he's with friends we had girls nights and boy's nights repsectively. he'll be sleeping there i assume. i hate sleeping alone. which is why i'm awake and here. i apologize if thre's incoherency and mispellings.
i did bad things again tonight. i should have nver have done them on thursday. coke is a bad bad thing. kids don't ever do drugs. they are bad.
man i'm such a loser sometimes.
its like a horrendous straight to the bottom spiral- when i do well i might as well do it right. its not like i do anything else well. ugh.
i hope nobody asks me about drugs. i hate lying. i've now done it twice in three days after not doing it in over a year and some months. and i did a fair amount tonight. *shameful*
and part of me feels like whatever. it was a great girls night out. i felt absolutey wonderful. so much fun, laughed my ass off. danced a lot, got hit on by several hot gentleman wich is always good for ego stroking and totally enjoyed myself.
there was no drama and we all behaved ourselves ... well within the normal range of reason. and had a great time. if you were in the city on 2nd ave and saw me tonight i was the girl in the jeans and the black shirt with silver heels throwing back shots at the bar.
i got to talk to a fwe people last night that i haven't aim'ed with in a long time. and it was way over due. and i truly enjoyed it and will try my very best to keep better in touch more often. i forget how strong these virtual conds we have are, and i was reminded last night. i heart you guys.
i think i should go to bed now.