a little bit not myself right now
Written: 2005-11-28 at 7:02 p.m.
no appointment with the nutritionist until thursday night. does that mean i don't actually have to care about food until then? does that give me a little leeway?
do i give myself a little leeway? no appointments with dr or therapist until wednesday. does that mean i don't even have to think about food until wed? am i that thoughtless right now? that idiotic that i honestly believe that it won't affect my weight. my labs. my head.
i should eat because i need to. want to. hunger to. have to.
should i have pushed the issue ? told the receptionist it was an emergency? told her to ask the nutritionist to call me back when she had amoment schedule me an appointment herself. instead i let someone i've probably neevr met pencil me in to an appointment slot that is just about two days from now. i could lose about three pounds in two days at this rate.
i should go. i should go and just do something else. not think about this in this manner right now. i'm a little bit not myself right now.