others body dysmorphia of me
Written: 2005-10-24 at 1:20 p.m.
well.
tf is still down :( not quite sure what to do with my free time. i've taken the dog on two walks today, washed the dishes, gotten my nails done, put away the laundry, had coffee, maybe i'll go to a book store. i'm awfully productive without it. sir hugob is awfully pooped though- lol. i wish it would come back soon.
i'm very tempted to take the last entry out. its embarrassing. i saw an old friend for coffee on her lunch break today, she said i looked very thin. do you ever wonder if everyone sees you as a little bit thinner than you are simply because they know you have an eating disorder? almost a reverse body dysmorphia ... let me explain.
ok i know my own body image is screwy, and distorted. but i never seem to get the same reaction from people who don't know me or anything about me as i do from people who have known me for awhile and through the various stages of my ed. and i think because of this their perception of me is sometimes a little skewed toward the skinnier side.
i really do think so. i also don't think i am that skinny, to the point that should warrant concern. it was nice to see her aside from that.
i think i'm going to go to the bookstore. i could be doing my homeowrk but ill leave that to later on, it seems like a perfect day to cuddle up on the couch with blanket and a good book.
any suggestions?